chronicles of the underdog
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Another snippet of my novel
His name was Mr White. He had two daughters; Janet and Kim, and a wife; Karien. He was quiet and distant.His classes were boring and stale. I never had the pleasure of being taught by Mr White, but Janine had. She was the reason I was there.
I had art with the youngest daughter, Janet. She was much like her father; quiet and distant, but her paintings were vivid, loud and full of colour.
One day Karel took their daughters and left Mr White. They flew to the United States to be with her much younger boyfriend. That same day Mr White took the .38 from his safe and put in his bag. He decided to come to class early. He stuck the gun into his mouth just as I opened the door to his classroom. I don't know if he would have really pulled the trigger or if it was me scaring him that made him pull the trigger. He looked straight at me for a split second and then in a spray of red mist he was gone.
Janine had claimed to have been off sick, but really she was just miserable with school and how fake it was. She had just read 'A Catcher in the Rye' and had begun thinking a lot of things were 'phony'. I knew if she didn't finish her year end assignment for Mr White's class she would fail the year. I couldn't take the risk of losing her. I went with the plan of convincing Mr White that Janine had swine flu and I would collect her homework for her. I should learn to knock before entering a room.
The whole class was let off of having to complete the task.
Friday, January 20, 2012
Another part of my book. its coming along slowly
I'd known Janine since I was 10 years old. My father had gotten a job in Cape Town so we all packed our stuff and drove from Krugersdorp.When I first attended Van Der Meyes Girls Primary School I was scared to death. I had heard about the cruelty of girls. It wasn’t their blows that hurt. I could handle physical pain. It was their words that I feared the most. Their words were like scalpels that cut into all your flaws. But Janine sensed my fear and she took me under her wing. I was always the smallest and weakest of the lot; the runt of the litter and I suspect it gave her a feeling of power to protect me from harshness of pre-teen girls. I spent my childhood sheltered from bullying and the general selfish acts girls enforce on others to make up for their own insecurities. Even now I am. People were intimidated by Janine. She had a confidence about her that made no one want to mess with her and by default me. The way she walked as if she was dancing; her hips moved side to side. She talked like she didn’t care and said what was on her mind. I fell in love with her.
Now I had to fight my own demons. It hurt every day that she never came into first period class. She always came late. She would have a quick come-back to the teacher’s “Thank you for joining us, Ms Van Wyk.”like "You're welcome". Everyone would laugh and all would be forgotten, but she never came. I watch the door waiting for her and everyday i didn't see her my heart sank. It was breaking.
“Jessica!” I could hear my mother’s foot steps coming up the stairs. Somehow I had managed to lose 2 hours. It was nearing 7am.
“Jessica, How are you feeling?” She didn’t even knock anymore. My mother was dressed in a black skirt and white blouse that showed a little too much. She sat on my bed and placed her hand on my head. She smelt like lavender.
“I’m fine.” I answered. I wasn’t. Anxiety had enveloped me. I felt like there was a rock sitting on my chest, squeezing the air out my lungs.
“Good. Go shower and get dressed.” She left my room leaving only a warm spot that smelt like lavender.
Monday, December 19, 2011
let the writing begin
The leak in my bedroom was at it again. I lay in bed imagining the cracks in the ceiling growing larger and bigger. They begin to look like large spiderwebs. I sometimes would wish that my roof would collapse and flood my small bedroom drowning me in a sea of rain water. I had spent a week out of school due to “flu”, but really I couldn’t handle my teacher who persisted to single me out in classes. I was out of excuses. Being invisible was more difficult then I had first perceived. I missed Janine most of all. She had yet to return to school after a falling out with the same teacher. Its been a month now. I know that without her there I have no one to protect me.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Its been too long
Monday, May 30, 2011
Belgium to ban Burqa
Another Country has jumped on the "Let's ban Burqas and therefore end terrorism" band wagon. Belgium has put through a bill that will ban burqas or a full body veil. The first country to ban burqas was France. The reason they are able to get away with this is because the Islamic community in these countries are a mere fraction of the population. And not even all practicing Islamic women wear full veils. In Belgium there are only a few hundred women who wear a full veil that covers their face.
Their reason for the banning is to protect women's rights. Though I'm all about equality between men and women, I'm also a firm believer in people choosing what religious views they want to have. I'm not religious in the least but I respect others' beliefs. So by protecting their "rights" they take away their right to practice whatever belief they have. In France any women defying the ban will receive a €150 fine or a course in "citizenship" lessons. Are they saying by defying this law it means they are not true citizens and therefore they should attend classes in order to "re-educate" them?
Who are Belgium and France to say that people can not dress according their religious laws? Sometimes I wish I could make a law encouraging more clothing. Its winter people... you no longer need to wear shorts or mini-dresses. You can still be pretty and dress modestly. Who is next? Is no one safe?
In Memoriam
Creep - Radiohead
When you were here before,
couldn’t look you in the eye.
You’re just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,
in a beautiful world
I wish I was special,
you’re so fucking special.
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I’m not around.
You’re so fucking special,
I wish I was special.
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don’t belong here
She’s running out the door,
she’s running,
she run, run, run, run, run.
Whatever makes you happy,
whatever you want.
You’re so fucking special,
I wish I was special,
but I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here,
I don’t belong here.